Nocturne Prince

King Of Pop Has Gone

June 26, 2009 on 9:27 am | In memories | Comments Off

I was terribly shocked when I read this. Never thought in my mind I would read this when browsing the internet. Michael Jackson has passed away. I couldn’t believe this. Tears were falling down as I watched this news on TV and his appearance sang Heal The World with the children. It was just last night I watched Super Junior sang this song in Open Concert and I said about how old was this song but it was always beautiful.

Despite of controversies he made-becoming a Muslim was something that shocked me the most-though I’m still not sure or what other people have thougth about his appearance, I don’t care and I still think that he is one of greatest singers. I love listen to his songs and of course!! Seeing his moonwalk! He rocks while singing Bad but you can hear the gentle voice when listen to Heal The World or You Are Not Alone. No one can sing and dance like him.

Again, I lost one of great musicians. Our legend Michael Jackson, Rest In Peace.

For Mickey…

June 18, 2009 on 9:26 am | In memories | Comments Off

유천씨한테…

Do you remember that little incident at Gimpo airport where you dropped a fan letter..? I couldn’t count anymore how many times I watched that video. I was angry yet sad…

I weren’t a big fan of DBSG. Even though I have known your band since 6 years ago. Yeah, since the first time you and other members debuted as Dong Bang Shin Gi. I still remember when I read the tabloid and my eyes were into JaeJoong and I said “Oh.. So pretty, so my style” but I never had any interest at all. I didn’t know why… Infact I’ve been into K-Pop for almost 9 years.

All started when I watched variety shows of my idols and you appeared there too. I watched the video on the backstage where you laughed and smiled happily. I think I was a bit interested at you and the other DBSG members. I started listening to DBSG’s music. I’d honestly say that not all of DBSG’s songs were good but I liked some songs. I used few of DBSG’s ballad songs to help me reading in Korean. I searched anything related to DBSG. I downloaded shows where you guys appeared there.

Then I saw you cried… I saw you cried when telling how hard your life was before the DBSG’s days. I was so much touched… My life wasn’t so much different from you. I even could say my life was more horrible than yours. Yes… sometimes I felt like my head and heart were going to explode… I really wanted to scream as loud as I could… I wanted to run as fast I could. Your tears gave me the inspiration to try harder in my life to reach my dream. That moment, I realized… I started to love you… Really admiring you…

But all were destroyed when I saw that yellow envelope on the floor… Why did you do that…?

I’d not say that what your fan did was right. I knew she was wrong to put that letter in JaeJoong’s hoodie but did you need to do that..? I also watched few fangirls who were smacked because they were too close to you… Was that the price that had to be paid to love you… To love one Mickey…?

When I want to send a letter to my idol, I always ask to my own self… Will he read my letter…? I don’t know but I know there is always a chance for that.

But now after seeing you dropped that letter, I lose my hope that stars like you guys will read my letter. I lose my faith… Fan’s letter doesn’t just contain the word “I LOVE YOU”. A letter could be contain support for their idol. The thankful and grateful feeling or words are not just done by buying albums or attending a concert.

I was in dilemma whether to support you again or not. One side, I was disappointed seeing what you did. I never admired artist who didn’t care about their fans but in other side I couldn’t stop smiling when I saw you were acting silly… when you smiled.

The main thing was you were already on my prayer. Yeah… Each time I prayed I never forgot to mention your name and other four DBSG’s members.

One week passed… One month passed… Ok… You still had my support.

But know what else again…? You grabbed your fan’s camera…??!!! I couldn’t believe this!!! Come on… 유천씨..!!! What the hell was wrong with you…?? I almost couldn’t think of anything about you after I watched that.

Where did all the cute and nice things go? Where did the innocent act that I often saw in you? Where was the tear when you made other felt the sympathy for you?

Ever since then I slowly lost my feeling in you. Everytime I saw DBSG’s video, I was curious but my hand never ever wanted to open it. It felt like so heavy. 유천 씨~~ you made mistakes. That was all.

For all DBSG boys, honestly I’m kinda sad to say this but I stop supporting you guys. One mistake… fine. Two mistake … okeii. Now? No… You’ve been in music industry for almost 6 years but seems you haven’t yet realized how fans (Even though yeah, some are annoying) are so worth it. I might still listen to few of your songs but that’s all.

To be honest… I’m thinking and feeling a little bit worried… Will you hate me after reading my letter…? I know, if DBSG loses one fan, it’s not a big deal. Since yeah… there are lots of your fans who love you to DEATH. I take the risk. In my mind, if you don’t hate me, it means you know that you’ve done something wrong but if you hate me, then it means more worthless for me to continue supporting you. Beside, if the one that I admire makes mistake, I rather tell him/her than accepting everything like they are sinless. That is what you call a BAD fan.

Don’t worry… I’m not going to be an anti. It’s not easy exactly to hate people but I might more like not to give a damn anymore on anything about you and DBSG. I just hope you guys will change it. If you think being in SM makes you like having no life and no identity then you can move to other company. It depends on your guys selves. Dare or dare not. Please stand on your own and be your self.

If I sound offensive. I’m so sorry. 너무 죄송합니다… Not even a little I intended to because you guys are the people who ever made my day is not deniable. Good Luck~!