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Toshi and Masaya

July 17, 2008 on 9:00 am | In memories | No Comments

It’s taken from Toshi’s blog at MySpace. If you wish to directly go to the blog page click here.

Friday, March 28, 2008

Title :About my new song “EARTH IN THE DARK -Leaving for the Blue Sky”
Current mood: calm

A new song is now ready and will be available on my official website exclusively for my fans since April 1st. MASAYA composed and produced this song for me, which is a musical fusion of the rock music from my earlier 10 years music history and the healing music from my latter 10 years.
And I will be singing as XJAPAN for 3 consecutive concerts at Tokyo Dome tomorrow.
Well, I have seen so many things happening to me so far.

I had so many supports from my fans as a vocalist of the rock band 10 years ago.
To tell you the truth, however, I was so fed up with everything about myself. I felt so wild within.

I was naturally looking for something to heal my heart. I was inclined to listen to so-called healing music which was not so popular here in Japan at that time. However, I was not satisfied with any of those still.

Some day in ’96, while I was back in Japan, I came to be fascinated with a music CD which I happened to find in a record shop. My heart was filled with some warm feelings every time I listened to the songs. Tears kept falling. I felt at rest. I felt my energy flowing anew from deep within. It was such a life saving experience for me.
it was for me a real encounter of the true healing music,
and the album was “Itoshiki Inochi no Uta” by MASAYA.

I gradually came to think I want to sing these songs now which saved me and started thinking seriously of a change of my musical direction toward such style of music.
That’s why I requested MASAYA to produce my music.

I was faced with much difficulty as my close relatives were against this change of direction. Now such healing music has been remarkably popular these days to surprise those who were against it then. My change of musical direction was sensationally taken up as something “cultic” or “brainwashing” by those who never tried to understand me or had no heart at all. I was so sad.
Since then, whatever I said, they seemed to fabricate false, religious, cultic images of mine and talked ill about me a lot.

Neither I nor MASAYA is not such kind of person, and both of us hate to be one.
I had no one to tell my truth, I had no words to express myself, since they wouldn’t listen to me. They seemed to be interested in their own understanding of my image.
That was such heart-breaking experiences I had in those days.

Media repeatedly reported MASAYA as if he had tricked me or brainwashed me.
I feel totally sorry for him just because I loved his music.
I was totally filled with disgust and frustrations.

In spite of any adversity, one can still go beyond.
However hard a life can be, one can still live positively and sincerely.
I was inspired and encouraged by MASAYA, who was always trying to live like he advised me.
I had come this way with much support from hearty and considerate people who dared to help me in whatever misunderstandings or slanders they had to encounter because of me.

I also had various exchanges by visiting various welfare facilities and giving voluntary performances and talking with the people there.
I learned a lot from the tears of elderly people, children and those who were pondering on their lives and dying at hospices.

Thanks to the people who lived various lives, which I never knew before,
As they heard me singing and felt healed, I also felt healed and energized myself.
I learned the music of truth reaches the heart of all people beyond time and space, in spite of any differences or boundaries, and overwhelms any kind of fashions or trends.
I really feel happy that I have been able to meet such people and to sing the true healing songs for them.

With such heart-warming experiences as “Heart Center” of mine, I will present you this new song “EARTH IN THE SKY -Leaving for the Blue Sky-” to continue further to realize my new visions.
I hope you will like it.

27 March, 2008

Toshi

Oh Gosh…! Thank you Toshi for telling us about this. How relieved and glad I was when I read your blog about this issue. I was tired dealing with people who insisted that you were brainwashed.

I always believe that Toshi wasn’t brainwashed. I believe you weren’t a fool. You knew what you did and you did nothing wrong with your choice. Now, you are back with X Japan and you are still with Masaya.

All of you, who keep spreading this irresponsible issue, stop it. Accept the fact that Toshi left X Japan because he wanted it. And stop insulting Masaya. I’m not a fan of Masaya, but insulting and talking bad about people, like they are criminal really not right. Moreover you were told wrong issue.

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