Nocturne Prince

One Day…

May 1, 2008 on 8:59 am | In memories | Comments Off

I miss Bogel… really miss him… Ok… how can I not..? When I woke up… and once he knew it, He woke up too. He waited for you in his cage, waiting for you to set him free. He liked to sing along with the music from the bakery seller that always cross my house everyday. But I didn’t hear he did it anymore…I held him almost everyday. Imagine how you held a human baby… that was how I held him. He’s just like a human baby and he could sleep on your lap for hours without caring of what happened surround him.

Few days after his passing, I read a newspaper. One of the articles said about Beckham’s new tattoo. It was written in Chinese which means… Live and death, each had its own destination, successful is in God’s hand… I started thinking, might be his passing because he had another family that he’d make happy. Just like the happiness he gave me. Yeah… he’d been with me not more than 7 months I think… but he gave me a lot… really a lot and I thank you for that.

Few weeks ago I dreamt I was holding him. Yeah… holding him just like what I did in real life. Even though in that dream, a woman (I didn’t know who) there was realized that he’d gone (and I knew it too) and she was questioning how I could still hold him… The next week I dreamt about him again. I dreamt I was feeding him by a spoon to his mouth. And I called his name… Bogel. But who I fed was a human baby! Yeah a baby boy, a white baby boy… and I called him Bogel…

Maybe I could dream this cause this was part of my wishes for him. But I really hoped this dream was a good sign and it tried to tell me that he’s just fine. I really wish and want to believe it…

If you’re born in a new family, I pray that that you’re born in a family who loves you so much. A family that will take care of you and give you all the affection you need cause you really deserve that.

Wherever and whatever you are… Be good. Your spirit and your joy are the greatest things of you… Whether you’re in heaven or born in a new family… I always wish and pray that love, happiness, joy and peacefulness are always with you.

I might be regretting for not taking care of him better. But I still want to thank… Thank you that I found him that day when he was alone under the house on stilts. Thank you… When the day he passed away, I was with him even not for a long time. (I was ready to go for some necessity that moment, but I canceled it when I saw his condition). Thank you for sending him to me. Thank you God… and thank you Bogel…

One day… We meet again… One day…